After publishing over 1.5 million books about faith, you’d think I’d have it all figured out.

I don’t.

Turns out, the hardest person to convince is still my own anxious brain.

My life has now become an experiment in surrender—a living test of whether faith can survive the wild.

I’m a confessional theologian and spiritual psychologist; the woman testing her theology in the field.

Here, we experience the full weight of our tiny rebellions of grace: choosing connection over competition, gentleness over pride, love over self-protection, and whatever else grace dares us to try.

If your brain won’t stop analyzing and your soul just wants to breathe, pull up a chair and welcome home. Welcome to the experiment.