Hey Guys. My Names Tahlia
I became a christain about 2 years ago. but everything hasnt been easy for me since then,
I had a problem with cutting. Everything just impacted on my mind and satan got to me
I attend church most Sundays and i go to a bible group and youth group when I can.
When I first told my mum about turning into a christain we were in a car coming back from a camp my friend invited me too. it was a christain one. my mum was pretty much speachless she didnt say much.
But when ever I try to tell her about Jesus she says dont put that religion stuff on me. or stop bible bashing me etc.
Ive had a pretty crazy childhood. my parents argue alot. smashing and tears are just normal for me with my parents relationship i havent really known any diffrent.
Ive tryed to run away from it a few times but i always get grabbed and pulled back in.
I attended a local school where I live and got builled alot there because of my weight
I had bark sticks food and other things thrown at me and called many of names
And the worst part is I took it out on all the people I loved
But then God blessed me and I went to a christain school.
Everyone was so nice and I felt like things were getting back to how they were
But then i realised that me moving schools didnt change my home life
I was in a bus accident in 2009. My friend Paul died in it. I have attended court this year because I was an eye wittness.
That really hit me hard. My shield feel down and all i could do was stand there and stare
no tears came out of my eyes like other peoples eyes.
They news paper arcticals have just stopped about the tragitie
I recently visted my sisters house and family said to me
god sounds like a non judgemental god so why would he make hell
It was satan talking to me and I was pushed away from god yet again.
I recentely told my teacher about cutting.
She was pretty shocked..
My world was just spinning I had sucicide thoughts and didnt want to live anymore
Well as its teachers duty too she made me tell my mum
my mother knew about the cutting before but last time i promised her i wouldnt do it again.
she did of just said dont do anything silly again
My scars are still on my arms
But Im still batteling with it all
But a postive side all of these things have gave me strength too
And when im feeling down I always have my friends to lift me back up
So i just wanted to say to all the people who have felt like me. I know how it feels. and id love to help you all with it. '
Can I also ask for pray. I want to pray for my other mum. shes always helping me and she is having hard times at the moment. it upsets me to see her upset.
God Bless. Tahlia