oh God help me please now..

I want him so bad. It started February 21 2012. He texted me and he was so sweet. February 26 came along and he asked me to be his girlfriend! I was so happy! We had a AMAZING relationship! We went to each other's churches, always hung out. He was the sweetest guy I have EVER met in my entire life. I wouldn't change a hair on his head. Our fourth month came along and after that I fell more in love with him each day and he fell out of love each day! :( I had no idea about that! We NEVER argued. NEVER! We were so happy together. We laughed, loved, and joked around like a madly in love couple. You may not believe me, but I know that I love him. 5 months was enough for me to fall completely in love with him. I loved literally everything about him. I really honest to God love him. even now. Well August 4 came around and we got into our 1st argument. Our first argument in 5 months. It was pretty much about nothing, but Later that night he decided he needed a break for a week. I cried my eyes out every single minute we started fighting that day but when he said this my heart felt it exploded and tears poured from my eyes like they never have before in my life. That week we barely texted any. It stunk. I cried every single day, but through all of this I ran to God. I read my bible and prayed like every 5 minutes constantly. Well when that week was over, he came and broke up with me officially. I balled! I felt like my life was just thrown in the trash. But honestly I wouldn't take any of that back because now I have got that relationship with God that I never had before. I never felt his unconditional amazing love like I do now. But I have been so strong throughout all of this until last night. Last night was our 1st football game and our schools played against each other. I saw his friend from church that I miss so very much, and he told me that Isaac was there (my ex). I was excited that maybe I would see him, but I didn't. Last night my mom texted him, and then I just texted hey and he didn't text either of us back! I am so heartbroken. The weird thing is that God told me that Isaac was the one for me. I know that. But I can't wait on him forever! I miss him so stinkin much. I have been so strong but now i am falling apart and I am begging Jesus to lead Isaac back to me and he isn't. Why? I know.... It may not be the time, but I cannot stand it any longer. I need some evidence Jesus is really there helping me by bringing him back. I can't stand it. I am standing firm on faith that Isaac is coming over today. If I ask and believe. Then I receive it. That is what the bible says so I believe Isaac is coming over. I don't even know if this is right or wrong, but I cannot take it any longer. I feel like my heart is being torn apart.... :'(

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Comment by Rachelle Aubrey on August 30, 2012 at 6:02pm: I have read a book about dating, preparing yourself for your future husband, and praying for him. Maybe God sends these problems into our lives with boys to bring us closer to Himself and to prepare us for marriage? I don't know. I think He does so that we can mature a little before thinking about boys again.

God sent a problem into my life not to long ago, and over time, I learned to trust Him. Maybe He's telling you the same thing. If this has brought you closer to Him, then........ maybe that was what God was telling you. He wanted a deeper relationship with you. Maybe to trust Him more and have a deeper relationship with Him. God sends situations into our lives to teach us a lesson, for a purpose.

I hope this has helped you.

Rachelle <3

Comment by Jordan Carmichael on August 28, 2012 at 12:43pm: Hey, I know a break up is always really, really hard. Just keep looking to God like you are doing. I don't want to say that God didn't really tell you that this boy was the one for you, but maybe it is possible that you were so in love with this boy that you just kind of shaped what you wanted around what you wanted God to say to you. But don't get me wrong, God may have told you that this guy was the one. And if you did then all you need to do is be patient. Let God move. When the time is right God will bring him back into your life. I know it might be hard, but God's plan is always better than our own. Maybe God needs to do in Isaac's life before you get back together, or maybe he even has something big planned for you that Isaac might just be in the way of. Don't worry girl. God's there for you, and he will help you get through this. I hope everything works out for. :)