My Life...

 Hey everybody :) Well I had been wanting to post a blog on here, but I wasn't sure on what to write about...So I am going to tell some of my story or my testimony...I'm not wanting to share it so i can get sympathy, even though prayers and support are always welcome, haha. But i was hoping that maybe this little part of my story could relate to someone else and help them if they are going through anything...

  Alright, so I am 16 years old. i grew up in a small town and have been going to the same church since i was 2, so it is my second family. When i was 15 my mother had a stroke, she became very depressed and down and never got out of the bed for about 6 months. During that same time, I had found out that my older sister had been raped by her ex boyfriend. I didn't understand at first why God would let this happen. I was so hurt and confused, but I can say that now my sister is stronger than ever. She has fully trusted in God now, she is growing spiritually everyday, and I am so happy for her. She didn't let her history become her present or future. My mother is still healing, she isn't perfectly well, but she is in progress. While my mother had her stroke and we found this stuff out about my sister, I became really depressed. I attempted suicide, i planned to run away, but the Lord guided me to this lady that listened to me and comforted me. Without her, I would not be here today. She reassured me that everything will be okay, It was all in God's hands. After all that, i begin to lose my faith in God. I began to explore things in life that should not be at my age. I became really close to a guy friend and we made some mistakes. I have fully forgiven myself over all that now, but I can say it was not easy!! I have been in love with that friend for about a year now. I have known him for about 10 years. About a week ago, he told me that he was in love with this other girl, IT TOTALLY BROKE MY HEART!! i cried for two days. But now i understand that God is the master and controller and we are to trust Him in EVERYTHING!! I prayed about my life with God, and right now He has told me to not date until im finished with school. I know this will be a challenge, but I want to be the best spouse possible one day, so I looked up to God and said Yes Sir!

  So yeah, through all the things that have happened to me, I have been able to surrender them to God and trust Him fully. I hope that maybe this blog has given you some reassurance on some things...please feel free to chat me or e mail me or anything, I am ALWAYS here for you. I hope you have a wonderful, blessed day!

                                                                                                 Love,

                                                                                                     Lindsey Nicole 

P.S. If you have any questions about something in this blog, or you want more clarification on something, please ask! BYE :)