Im stuck in my old ways! help, pray ..somthing :/

Hey guys im brittani i am 15 years old i go to a rural school and ive been a christain since the 8 grade .. Well you see im not what you would call the nicest person im the one that makes jokes to make everyone laugh even if its hurtful but i dont mean it.. I kinda grow up this way and i was wondering how to be a nice or a christain person that if someone were to judge me they would see god in me.. i often times try to be nice but then i get stuck in my old habits and i pray but i feel as if God is shutting me out.. I really wish to change but my habits just suck me back in .. ofetn times i talk before i think.. any ideas or tips? ugh i really dont wanna be the way i am if im hurting people just for a laugh! I dont wanna hurt anyone i wanna be funny and cool without being mean or even comming off that way. I dont hang with christian friends they r perverted and stuff and it rubs off.. there arent many chirstains here i mean they say they are but you know they dont act like it and im sick of the way i am and i feel as if god tries but i ignore him somehow? .. and well my friends will say somthing about someone and ill go along with it and ik its wrong cuz right after i feel really guilty and i have alot more issues and i wish so much to change but its really hard !? help plz :/

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Comment by Evangeline Colarossi on October 18, 2012 at 3:21pm: i know what you mean :P most of the time i wonder "will people know i am a Christian just because i am polite to grownups and wear some Christian T-Shirts?"

But i don't understand HOW i can change. I want to hang out with Christian kids, so I can try to rub off on THEM but mostly they rub off on ME :/

Madelaine used to tell me, "count to 10 before you talk" haha that workes GREAT when shes upset! *sarcasticness* she thinks i am ignoring her if i count that long, or even IF i remember to count! i hat eit when i get mad at her or noelle or rae and blow my top caus when noelle and rae cry when i do that it makes me mad at myself that i did that...

I just try to keep thinking now to try to keep calm... i'll have to tell you girly -- i FAIL a TON...

Lately my mom has been getting amd at me since i am really moody, and dont give noelle and rae a second chance after they make me mad, and i fele like no one understands..

I'll pray for you girly, you dont know how much i am jealous of you... You can lay on your bed and read you Bible as much as you want it seems like and here I am hating my sisters and family cause i never get to read mine, Madelaine hogs all the time with work, school, and HER free time, on her laptop, my mom is constantly on facebok and her email and my dad is never home except 2 days a week now, and Noelle and Rae won't leave me alone so i can read it. And so i feel like i dont care about God anymore.. Be glad fo rthe relationship you DO have with God, but at the same time, pray and ask for prayer that He will help you, even at TFC on saturdays, when my mom asks for people who want prayer, raise your hand! When i was at TFC camp i had made friends with a bunch of the popular girls already, but when i felt like i needed to walk all the way up the isle and fall on my face in front of everyone, i couldnt do it... then i saw one kid do it - that was it and i was up there.

Sometimes it takes someone else to give you a boost, but sometimes yOU have to be the one, maybe im getting off track, if so im so sorry :/

Just know i'll be praying for you and if you need someone to talk to I am on Godgirl about ever day so you can message me or email me, ill message you my email if you want :)

Love yah girly! :) Vange