I'm changed, I'm me.

It is no secret that the past few weeks have been utterly chaotic in Lu-ville.  I have found what it is to be truly accepted by people that I never would have considered befriending before.  I have found Jesus and how much He loves me.  I've found that when you spread the gospel it is the Holy Spirit working in you, and not you doing the actual work.

It seems as though I have friends who are waiting for the "Jesus-phase" to pass, standing back and not really knowing how to deal with me... I've got a massive surprise for them, this isn't a phase - this is LIFE!!  
Through God I've found life.

A close friend of mine passed away recently and I don't think I'm quite over that yet.  I don't know how long it will take, but I pray that I will find peace knowing that he is in the best place imaginable.  Thank you to all of you God Girls who prayed for me during this tough time.

Last week I got the amazing news that I'm finally recovering after a 9-month battle with cancer.  Today the doctor gave me clearance to go to gym again - which I am mighty grateful for because gymming is my work, my passion.  Helping people live healthy lives is my dream!

Before the calm that I am feeling today, my life was in chaos (a fact that I am only really seeing now).  I was running around trying to please everyone, trying to fight back in so many ways, trying to get better and nothing was working!!  Then one day a friend said to me "Lu, just let go and allow God to do the work.  Stop worrying and start living." -- I did.  I didn't care what any of my 'friends' said, I just let go and prayed for God to enter my life and make me whole again.

They say you never really change, that you just become more of who you really are... but this was never who I was.  I was never this calm in the stormy waters of life.  I've never been this comfortable with who I am as a person.  I've never listened to people the way I do now.  I've never prayed this much.  I've never wanted to spread God's Word as much as I do now.

I am still wounded, I am still scarred on the inside - but Jesus has changed me, made me better, made me, ME!

Thanks to all of you who have stood by me in prayer these past couple of weeks!!  I am extremely grateful to each and every one of you.  If ever you need me to pray for you, please don't hesitate to send me a message - I am here for you!!

Much Love,
x~Lu~x