Hey girls, I feel like I can't sleep until I write this. So, here it goes.
For years, ever since I was 12 or 13-years-old I wrote. I wrote almost, if not always, every day. Mostly love stories. Guy-girl relationships. And in every one the guy was (almost) perfect...and a lot of times there was at least one guy that was jealous because he wanted the girl. Any way, what I realized tonight as I am trying to sleep was: One, that I wrote about the guy that I wanted, the "perfect guy". And after I started dating my, now, fiancé I didn't write as much, hardly at all unless it was a blog post about college or prayers. the second thing I realized was, that my fiancé IS the guy I wrote about. The other two guys I "dated" gave me more material to write about because they weren't "fulfilling" my wants and needs like the guys in my stories...they weren't "fitting the mold". I'm not saying they weren't great guys; well my first "boyfriend" I met online (which you should NEVER do) and he is real and who he says he was....and the second one was actual bad (we only dated for two months and saw each other twice maybe), he cheated on me with two different girls. And I'm not saying my fiancé is perfect and fits the mold of my fictional characters perfectly; but ever since I started dating him I have been the happiest I have ever been and I don't hide behind my pen and paper writing about a guy that doesn't exist and can not be beat.
Jeff, while he is far from perfect, is my "knight in tin foil". Jesus is the only "Knight in Shining Armor". While, I don't write as much any more--mainly because I have no major drama, hurt, or troubles (involving a guy) to give me inspiration to-- I still love it. I have written a few things, and am working on editing my first stories. Lately, though I have been working on my relationship with God, understanding Jeff and his needs and how he is as a guy (which is hard to understand and grasp, btw). And preparing for our up coming marriage! :) I think that is all for right now. Good night, ladies.