Ok, so I like this guy at my youth group. I'm not sure of how he feels about me, but all of my friends & my mom are convinced he likes me. This is because back in March, our youth group made encouragement boards for one another, and everyone went around writing nice things on each others board. The guy I like, he wrote things that he would never say in person! It basically sounded like a love note or something!
Now this Thursday is our last youth group because it's not held over the summer. This guy is graduating, and then moving away to Santa Rosa.
We still talk at youth group, but he acts like the stuff he wrote to me never happened but he still flirts! We tease each a lot too.
Back in April, our youth group went on a weekend retreat to a camp. On the Sunday morning when we were to leave, me & him sat on the back deck of the cafeteria and had like a real conversation. I'm terrible at talking so I really didn't know what to talk about, but it was nice, and I'm pretty sure my heart beat was like a million miles an hour. I thought about telling him then, but I didn't.
Lately, I've been learning something though. That us as Christians, God Girls, we're not suppose to let our feelings control us. Like we're not suppose to follow our emotions, or follow our hearts as society says, because they can be deceiving. We should be following what God says and do what God tells us to do.
So that leaves me as to what do I do? I mean I know God is writing my love story and I trust Him with all my heart. I just don't understand.
I should mention that I've liked this guy since I first met him in the 3rd grade, that would be about ten years ago. And said boy has only come back into my life since I started going to his youth group back in October of last year. And I don't want to take things into my own hands because that will just make things worse. I realize God's in control here, but I just want to tell this guy I like him and be done with it. I don't want to worry about this because I know that God is faithful. It's just hard because I've never liked a guy this much before, and I don't know if I should be doing anything about it.
I'm just really confused. :/