I have been taking steps to improve my relationship with Jesus and have been spending more time with him. But, I have also been struggling with things and will feel sad, discouraged, and confused. Sometimes I'll be crying in my room and so I'll pray and feel better about things. Unfortunately, this has been happening repeatedly and while I'll feel fine for a while, I feel discouraged again and just altogether not peaceful. I have also been reading quite a few Christian books including the God Girl Devotional, The Power of a Praying Teen, and Loved. I've taken the advice from those books and also I read about God completely breaking people down and that you can't be fully surrendered to God until you have nothing left. Personally, I want to fully surrender to God, but I don't exactly want to have nothing left. Is that wrong? I've also been doubting things and worrying about things. I've decided to trust God with these things, but I still feel worried about them. I feel like some of this might be Satan, but probably a good part of it is just my sinful nature and coming from my own head. I don't know what to do to fix this.