Does anyone hear me?

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Comment by Kami Renee Berry on July 21, 2011 at 10:58pm

Thanks girls. And Bethany, I am holding onto stuff. I try to let it go, but it doesn't go. I ask God to take everything from me and let his light shine through me, but I still hold those things.

Comment by Amy Braun on July 21, 2011 at 12:41pm

This is the hardest part. When? But you have to trust in God and know that His timing is perfect. And you also need to take initiative. You need to try to move forward in what you want your life to be. Just make sure that's also what God wants. But you know, God puts desires in our hearts for a reason, usually that desire that you have in your heart, that you know God would approve of, usually it's from him! So work towards that, and remember that you have God, and a whole load of brothers and sisters in Christ, on your side, cheering for you. :)

Comment by Kami Renee Berry on July 20, 2011 at 7:06pm

I have begged God to take away my pain and heal me. I know these things aren't going to happen over night... but when? I don't see any progress...

Comment by Anna <3 on July 2, 2011 at 7:58pm

I know just how you feel sometimes i feel the same way im sorry about that bye.

Comment by Karen McNab on July 2, 2011 at 6:20pm

Well , you can always talk to me then (:

Comment by Kami Renee Berry on July 2, 2011 at 5:34pm

Thanks Girls. I am working on all of this stuff. I have a lot a resentment I guess you could say against God because of some of the things that have happened to me in the last few years. I'm cleaning up my life and it started with my room today. I picked up everything. Took my bible from on the floor and put it with the rest of my books. I don't like to talk to my friends about all of this because a lot of them aren't Christian so, they really won't care. And as for my youth pastor, I don't really know him enough to trust him with telling him everything. I tried that once and I said nothing.

Comment by Karen McNab on July 2, 2011 at 4:17pm

I have definitely experienced pain . But one thing that I've learned from all my pain is that He makes all things work out for your good !

 

All these things hurting you , they're blessings in disguise ! Even though it may not seem like it .

 

As for bottling it up and putting on a mask , find someone to talk to , a friend , a teacher , a pastor , even someone on here - like me ! On top of telling someone , also talk to God about it all . Once you start to talk and recieve help from God things do ease up . And when things ease up , theres no need for a Kami mask , just the real beautiful , wonderful you !

 

Love you girl , and let me know how things go (:

Comment by Patty Arellano on July 1, 2011 at 11:17pm

I have the same problem but mostly with my family my friends knew how much i was hurting but at home i put on the best mask i could find the happy girl who didnt care what was going on inside i was screaming this was before i was close to god then i relized he know the real me and he knows the real you , you can put on a thousand masks he will see through all of them pray to god fro help for guidance on how you can show your family the real you without them making the wrong usumption 

Comment by Amy Braun on July 1, 2011 at 8:49pm

Yeah, I had the exact same problem a couple of months ago. I had put on a mask for such a long time. None of my friends knew that I was hurting on the inside, nobody knew except for God. And I don't even know why I wasn't angry at God, or had given up on him, because my problems kept on getting worse and worse. I was dead on the inside, but somehow i looked like "I had it all together". I could almost feel the physical feeling  of emotional pain being bottled up, and I felt so close to exploding. I felt like one day, someone was going to put me down one more time and I would just lose it. Explode. Because that's exactly what happens when you bottle everything up. You explode, and you life goes flying into a million pieces, and you feel even more broken then you already do. And then one day I read this book about this girl who had bottled up all her pain and hurt, and she was about to explode and  she got help from a counseler, and she lernt to forgive the people who hurt her. I knew imediatly then, that I wanted help. So I was praying every day that God would give me someone to talk with about my problems. After quite a few months I figured out that God wanted me to talk with this girl at my church. I was so nervous though, I wanted to talk to her, but at the same time I didn't. And I really didn't want to actually have to SAY anything. So what I wrote a letter. I just wrote down all my hurt and pain on a couple of pieces of looseleaf, and I kept it in my purse. It was actually reassuring to just have all my problems on paper, ready to give away. Through a lot of pain and more feelings of hurt and betrayal, I finally got to give my letter to the girl I needed to give it to. We sat down in a quiet room and talked about my letter, and my hurt, and pain. And after we finished talking I walked out of that room feeling so FREE! It sounds cheesy, I know, but after lifting such a heavy burden off my shoulders I felt more alive then ever. I wasn't dying on the inside anymore, I was free. And now I have an escape, someone to talk to when I'm hurt again.

Now, I'm not saying you should do exactly what I did. I think you should see if you can talk to anyone, maybe some random person at your church. Because, Kami, everyone goes through hard times, and you will always feel like you're dying on the inside if you don't share with someone. And don't tell your peers because then it's like the blind leading the blind, because they don't know any more than you do. But you need to talk to someone. You can't wonder through life hurt and dead (when everyone thinks you have it all) with freedom so close. There's hope. And there's freedom waiting for you, but you need to fight you fears to get there. That's what I had to do, but I remember just telling Jesus to take full control of my life and to steer it where ever He wanted it to go, and He really is a lot better at doing that than we are.

So keep going, trust in God to light up the right path for you to go down. And always remember that He has the perfect plan for your life, and He has a perfect purpose for your life,, and He has the perfect timing. He'll get it right. And I'll be praying for you. Love ya Kami, and so does God. He loves you more that you can imagine! <3

Comment by Kami Renee Berry on July 1, 2011 at 6:32pm

I trust in God. I don't really feel comfortable around anyone to let everything out.

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