Around good friends I was outgoing, cheerful, peppy; I was good at knowing how to make evryone laugh. No one would even suggest that I was shy. But stick me in a room filled with people I didn't know, and I 'd barely be able to say anything other than my name. I'd turn quiet and would only talk if I had too.
When I went on my missions trip this summer, I thought I'd be too shy to do anything. I was prepared to sit back and watch other do all the hard things. On one of my first says though I realized that God had another plan. One of my leaders named Kevin told me I was a bold woman of God. Inside, I laughed and thought, "Only if he really knew me." But through the trip he kept telling me that I was bold and might. Eventually, I started to believe that i could become a bold, but I just wasn't sure how I was supposed to do that. How do you just become bold?
One day, while were were bring some little girls back to the church we were staying at for a children's ministry, my whole perspective about my missions trip changed. I had a little girl on my back and was spinning her around, running, and jumping. She was just laughing and telling me to keep doing it, so I did. Inside though, I was tired and run down. I was wondering why God had sent me on this trip. I was feeling a little disappointed about all we had done so far. And as I was thinking this, Kevin turned to me and said, "YOU know why you're on this trip?"
"Why" I asked.
"You're here to just love on these children and to become the bold woman that God wants you to be."
I didn't know what to say to Kevin after that, But I knew they were words from God. Later, Kevin shared a verse with me. 2 Timothy 1:7, which says, "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and self discipline."
This verse made me realized that all the fear—all the timidity, I had wasn't from God. Fear doesn't come from God, so I needed to give God all of my fears so that I could become the bold woman that he wants me to be. Let me tell you, its not easy. it takes trust and faith. It requires you to step outside of your comfort zone. But its important, because without it I could never do the things God wants me to do in my life. I wouldn't be able to all that he wants me to do—all that he needs me to do to benefit his kingdom—to bring the people to Christ.
God made me outgoing around others. He made me fearless there too, but I was hiding there. Listen to what God is telling you to do. BECOME THE BOLD AND MIGHTY WOMAN OF GOD!